I don't think you can deny that you've been obtuse here though. I asked you for a full reads list and you told me to fuck off basically, you stalled more than was due on delivering your claim for what is a pretty awful role if we're being honest, and then have taken to ignoring me when I've asked you about what you think of one of your main pushers who is projecting a high degree of certainty. Like, I'm giving you the opportunities and you aren't even trying to take them, even just a "I'll sleep on it and come back to you tomorrow" would be better.
So it's pretty hard to read anything other than resignation from your play to be quite honest. And in that case, I would advocate for a swifter day (hammering over the next 12-24 hours).