Hi Flower, if I may - I think you just need to step back a bit here. The win will come, I promise you it will, and I also think it will help you get more enjoyment if winning/losing isn't the sole determinator in your overall takeaway from the game. I expect it's probably down to external factors here - take a break, get yourself back up off the mat, and next time, hopefully it works out. We still have that game to host.