All I can really say to this Flower is that I don't believe most of those involved are mean-spirited. For some, there probably is an element of chauvinism or otherwise, a need to pounce on any perceived sign of "weakness", and by and large I think this site in particular brings out the very worst in people, but for the most part people will just want to play mafia. I think you would probably stand to gain from divorcing the personal aspect of these games from your sense of self - this is by no means easy, but in the long run it would be for the best. I don't exactly have the best luck with being indie either. At the end of the day, it's just a silly game, watch some anime or play some vidya, and then just play this game when you feel like it. Last game proved to me that it doesn't matter what your intentions are, there will always be a collection of people intent on being as uncharitable as possible, they're really not worth any emotional effort at one's own expense.